Hi Ella. I also get depression every month, 1-2 days before my period. I noticed it to be connected to my period when the symptoms would ease up as soon as blood comes out. It’s a very dark place, yes, like the world feels starkly empty of meaning. I go to work and teach classes with that dark cloud hanging over me, but going to work helps to distract me till it passes. Going through this monthly depression makes me empathetic of depressed people who see no relief--imagine the horror of being stuck in that place! Hugs to you, sister.